It seems so has happened since I last wrote here from my heart. So much has been shifting and changing in every area of life. So many endings which means there is also so many New Beginnings!
My boys are growing up and I am constantly in the dance of holding on for dear life and letting go and trusting they will be OK.... It goes so fast, they grow up before you blink and while the nights are so long sometimes, my gosh the years are short. I have realised a lot about letting go, I have acknowledged that I am TERRIBLE at it and I am working really hard on being better at it. I hope that time will help. I hope that life will be kind to us. How do you put into words how much you love your children in a way that they will understand? Maybe they won't until they have their own children and they know what I feels like to see your whole world and your heart outside of your body suddenly drive away in a car, leaving you in the quiet remains of what was once a very full and busy time. I hope I have done enough. I hope that they always know where home is. I hope they always know the love I have for them is completely unconditional.... the letting go....
Trust!
So along with letting go and letting my boys be the incredible humans they are, there has also been so many personal changes for me. I am now working in my business Gold Soul Therapy full time. I took the giant leap from my employment into my business to see what I can make of this. I am backing myself in to the hilt and at the time I was unsure, it was so scary but I knew that I needed to make a change, so here we are! So much water is under the bridge and it hasn't been an easy transition but it is done now. My heart is a little broken but also filled with so much excitement and a sense of peace now that I have all my energy to pour into my clients and my boys.
When my intuition told me it was time, I really didn't want it to be. I really didnt want to change. I really didn't want to follow that guidance that I know is true and right. I wanted to just stay safe and small. Life had other plans and it was no longer an option but to listen. While I was making this decision I also was thinking of my clients. I was imagining that I was the client for just a little while and I asked myself what advice would I give to me as a client?
The answer was so solid and so strong ~ follow your intuition and your heart, it knows where it is leading you and you must trust and let life flow. Things will work out, they always do. It won't always be easy but I know that by following my heart, there will be no regrets and now I am here. I get to build this beautiful heart led business and help more and more people.
This is what makes me excited, this is what drives me to be the best person so I can be the best Mum, friend and also the best practitioner.
Nothing is staying the same for very long, if I look back at life a year ago I see there is so much that has left, so much has entered, so much has been experienced and that nothing really is the same. I have lost some people who I really loved with my whole heart. That really hurts to say. I gained a sense of knowing myself in a whole new way. I see my self worth now as so much more than ever before. I guess as a tree grows it loses branches and leaves along the way. The best ones always stay though. Always.
I am so excited for what lies ahead and I know that by following my heart, there will be so many wonderful things along the journey.
Thank you for being here.
Like I say to my boys always ~ "It is SO important to be BRAVE with our lives".
So here we go, being brave, full of love and hope. I hope you are being brave too. Let's do this!
Love Shari x
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